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Yes, i’m just a dirty old man

Adam

p.s – She’s some teenage Disney star… I love that shit

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My best friend got his girl pregnant….

I’m about to be a pseudo-uncle….

I’m thinking he’s going to do just fine…

Adam

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Ok, maybe that header was a little harsh:

1. Went here -> http://www.brazilianbeauty.com.au;
2. Got waxed (p.s – to my brother, i’m sorry you had to read this!);
3. Took girlfriend along with me;
4. Talked in-fucking-cessantly the whole time because I was shitting myself..

4.1 It doesn’t hurt at all where you think it’s going to kill (that really shocked me)
4.2 FARK ME, it stings where you think it will be zero-pain (that weirded me out)

5. These were my reaction(s)

5.1 I went ‘grrrr, that.hurt’ three times
5.2 Wow, that looks … ‘different’
5.3 Wow, that looks pretty cool
5.4 Oooh, smoooth
5.5 I wonder what hers looks like
5.6 I’ll be back

6. And yes, after you get over seeing it for the first 24 hours, it feels fucking fantastic

A

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ed’s note: … this blog was inspired by this post -> http://theantilogy.blogspot.com/2007/05/death-tends-to-put-things-into_02.html

I’m a cock people……  There’s nicer ways I could say this, there are ways that I could pepper it, things I could say to cover up my behaviour at times and certainly I could straight out lie to you.

But here’s the thing, it’s the truth.

So now that we’ve clarified on that, let’s look at the reality of my world……

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Ed: I realise this post is all over the place.. it was 3am.. in some timezone… somewhere….. on a plane…

So live with it  

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It’s a strange moment in the universe when you realise that you’re finding some sense of happiness.  What makes it extraordinary when you didn’t even see it coming in your direction and you’re sitting there laughing at yourself when you realise how fucking dumb you are not to have done something about it a long time ago.

I have amazing friends.  I have friends who would walk in front of buses, climb mountains, run marathons and drink until we’re all laughing until we hurt.  You comfort me when and support me even when I fuckup (and let’s be honest, that’s not a rare occassion) and you laugh (at) with me when i’m talking more than any person alive should.

You still don’t judge me, you still accept me and you still actively encourage me to be a part of your worlds. 

I never realised how truly happy made me until I realised in a single moment that ‘this’ is what it’s all about.
I have an amazing family, who have shown me over the past month that love can endure, and that marriage is never an easy institution, never an easy substitute for life.  But you work at it, and you get the results in the end.  That’s what makes it great.

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The changes that are happening in my life will take me spiralling in a multitude of directions and I am terribly sad to be leaving Sydney on my wayward journey to Brisbane.  With that in mind, I realise that by settling down (yes, that means drinking less) i’m actually going to be able to afford a life that still brings me back in contact with Sydney on a regular basis.  What would have regularly been only weekend jaunts will now turn into week-long escapes where I not only meet my professional requirements, keep my attachment to Brisbane, but quite literally, have the best of both worlds.

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On the girl front, a whole myriad of activities there.  (There always is!)…. But no drastic movements, no drastic actions, no conspired moments and no, I haven’t met someone new and fallen in love!

I’m not quite ready to say everything there is to say, but I can say that this has been a whole month of massive realisation and i’m continuing to actually enjoy finding out what makes me happy.

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Because what makes me happy is not glamour, it’s not glitz, it’s not the jet-setting lifestyle, or more money in my pocket…

- It’s afternoon drinks with friends;
- It’s taking the piss, pushing your boundaries and never giving up hope on happiness;
- It’s watching those you care about come out of bad situations and make something entirely positive of it;
- It’s realising that it’s not all actually as hard as you thought it was, you just had to open your eyes and let it happen for once;

I’m staying on track with winding back my life.  I’m working towards spending more time with my family, more time on my bike, more time on training (I will admit that the stress has helped me stack on a few unwanted kilos!… psychological eater.. yes I am…), and maybe just a little more time on me.

Adam

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I’m absolutely shocked… This I what Katie sent me today (grrr!) .. and  below is my super-nice-i’m-still-slightly-in-love-with-you-but-you-need-to-keep-away-from-me response…..

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Hi Adam,
 
I’ve been thinking about the phone bill (I’ve paid it now because they put a barr on my phone) and I know that money will be very tight for you for a while.
 
So, instead, of cash, how about I just use the Red Balloon Days voucher?
 
It’ll also offset some of the cost of getting someone to look at my laptop.
 
Sorry about the email, but I don’t really want to discuss this by phone, I’ve got enough stress at work at the moment without any more.
 
thanks
 
Katie

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So when did ‘Wang’ become thew new word for penis?!?!?!

hmmmm…

Adam

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How many people do you know that watch comedies that bawl their eyes out at the end…..?  Probably not many i’m guesing….

When this movie is released in Australia, you.must.watch.it – Stranger Than Fiction…..

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Here’s the final scene, it’s all narrative ……

As Harold took a bite of Bavarian sugar cookie, he finally felt as if everything was going to be ok.  

Sometimes, when we lose ourselves in fear and despair and constancy, in hopelessness and tragedy, we can thank God for Bavarian Sugar Cookies.  

And fortunately when there aren’t any cookies, we still find reassurance ………..  in a familiar hand on our skin

…. or a kind and loving gesture

…. or a subtle encouragement

…. or a loving embrace

…. or an offer of comfort.

 Not too mention hospital guerneys and nose plugs.

…….  And a little danish

…. and soft spoken secrets

…. and fender strat acasters

…. and maybe the occassional the piece of fiction…

And we must remember all these things, the nuances, the anomalies, the subtelties, which we assume only accessorise our days are in fact here for a much larger and  nobler cause  …………

…….  they are here to save our lives.

I know the idea seems stranges.  But I also know that it however happens to be true.

And so it was,  .. that a wrist watch, saved Harold Crick.

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ed: Today (15/05/07) I look back and this and laugh, but I also realise that this was how I felt at the time, and that’s why this is published hered…..

Dammit I can’t get this to format, so download the Word Document of it

Click here for all the juicy details.

Adam

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*smile* – I never thought I’d ever write a ‘Dear Katie’ letter…. (heck, I never thought I’d write a ‘Dear Anyone’ letter, but hey).

It is at defined moments in ones life when one has an ephiphany of sorts, and realises that to truly live, one needs to accept where they are in the universe and to let some things go.

With that in mind it’s time for me to let you go Katie…..

I could spend pages telling you my thoughts and feelings and what I thank has happened.  I could spend pages trying to make you see something that I want you to see, what I think is better for you, and how I think you’re making a mistake, and how the universe would be so much better if you were with me.

But you know what, you’re not me Katie, and I shouldn’t be telling you how to live your life or what you need to be feeling…. And right now, I don’t believe you’re in any kind of position to be open for those things to happen. (Ed: I sincerely apologise, that’s not meant to come across as derogatory, it’s simply my observation of the pain that I perceive that I see in you)
 
That journey, only you can take it, and I had completely forgotten that until today.  In wanting the very best for you (and I genuinely do), I forgot that I can’t make it all better, I can’t always take away someone elses’ pain and even if the answers that I have are right for me, it doesn’t mean that they’re right for you.

So for that, I apologise. 

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I love you Katie, I know it now as much as I’ve known it since that morning when we laid in your bed and we opened up to each other and I smiled for the first time in a very long time.  And I was happy.  And for that, I’ll always (always) be grateful, because it’s moments like that, no matter what happens, that will stay with me in my heart, and they are feelings I had long since locked away years before…..
However, for your own reasons (and I’m not going to assume to know what they are), you don’t love me.  And to be frank, I deserve for someone to love and cherish me in exactly the same way that I love you.

So I’m going to be unselfish and I’m going to let you go Katie, because I do love you, and to truly love someone is to set them free.

I wish you the absolute happiness in life that you deserve, and in another time and space, if/when you ever want to catch up with me (for all the right reasons), then I’ll be here.

A xx (x’s are the hugs, right? )

Ps – Do me that favour and watch the movie, Stranger Than Fiction.  I sincerely believe there’s a fantastic message in it, and now that I’m letting you go you can truly know that I want you to watch it for you, and not for my own agenda.

Pps – This is possibly some of the most appalling grammar I’ve ever seen, I’m sure you understand that today is a fairly emotional day and you’ll let me off the hook just this once 

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