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Thought I’d take it upon myself to write a quick up date, on what I’m not quite sure but I’m sure it’ll come to me…. )

Few topics that come to mind….

*What’s with those bloody emails: “if you send this to 100 people in 5 seconds your wish will come true, if you don’t you’ll have bad luck forever.” Those things are crap! If the emails any good I’ll forward it on but delete the crappy little message that’s at the end. Ahhh, it all makes sense – I can blame all my problems on those emails, hehehehe

*Quality v’s quantity, big v’s small…. ;o)

Next…. Ummmm

*Ever read those pick a path / pick an adventure books when you were a kid, where u get to choose which direction you take? I always used to cheat How cool would it be if we could do that in real life! “Nah, I don’t like how this is going I’ll just back track to this point in time…” Or does destiny, fate or what ever you want to call it (if you believe in it) always win?
I love the movie Sliding Doors. It does the whole alternate choices thing but with the same end result… (that is if my memory serves me correctly, I’m shocking when it comes to movies – even ones I love!) Is that what fate is… Whatever’s going to happen will happen? So this then raises the question do the choices we make now really make that much of a difference to the big picture?

*It’s interesting how some people tend to act differently around other people… Is it caused by, or does it have to do with, their comfort levels, insecurities or personality traits & then what certian people consider to be appropriate or inappropriate…?

*Is it truly possible to live in the ‘NOW’?

*Going to the beach to lie in the sun, wanting to get a tan, but putting factor 30+ sunscreen on… Where’s the logic there? That’s me by the way!

Anyway, I got to catch up with a very relaxed Adam on Saturday. Met him and Eve at Manly in the afternoon & lay on the beach for a few hours which was great, gotta love the beach! Yes, even with my factor 30+ sunscreen ;o) Then we did the dinner & drinks thing with one of my f iends at the pub across the road form my place. It was a good night!

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Ok, this topic isn’t broached very often, well apart form the herpes d’s on TV saying that all you need to do is take a tablet to get rid of them… It should be telling you how the hell not to get them in the first place or at the very least explaining that any contact of “down there” could actually result in contracting this disease.

Anyway, back to the reason I’m writing this post. I had a very limited sex ed at school, considering none of us were going to have sex out side of marriage, I spose the powers that be thought we wouldn’t need it… For goodness sake when we were at school our skirts had to touch the ground when we knelt down.

I went & did the adult thing a few weeks ago & got checked (all clear btw) & I proceeded to ask the doctor for some information on STD’s, what they are & how they’re contracted. Do you think she could give me any sort of information?

No.

Her answer was “ask me what you want to know”.

I felt like going, well honey, if I knew what I wanted to know I don’t think I’d be asking for information would I? Basically her advise “stick with one partner that you know well”. Lovely! & if I don’t want to do that…???

I’ve done a bit of research on my own, click here for a good website:

Herpies – “caused by oral-genital or genital-genital contact with a person.”

Chlamydia – “can be transmitted during vaginal, anal, or oral sex.”

Genital Warts – “caused by genital-genital contact with a person”

Gonorrhea – “is spread through contact between the penis, vagina, mouth, and anus. Ejaculation does not have to occur for gonorrhea to be transmitted or acquired.”

Syphilis – “is passed from person to person through direct contact with a syphilis sore. Sores occur mainly on the external genitals, vagina, anus, or in the rectum. Sores also can occur on the lips and in the mouth. Transmission of the organism occurs during vaginal, anal, or oral sex.”

HIV – they didn’t actually have a cool little fact sheet on this like the rest of them…

Considering it says that “Ejaculation does not have to occur for gonorrhea to be transmitted or acquired” does this mean that for the other STD’s ejaculation actually needs to happen for something to be contracted, well that would only really be Chlamydia, of the ones listed above, wouldn’t it…

What I’ve learnt (which is something I already knew) – If you bump uglys with someone you could contract a lovely little STD, either with or with out condoms. Is sex worth the risk… hmmm, that’d be a YES. Will I be even chooser about who I sleep with in the future… hmmm, that’d be another YES.

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Well, I really don’t want to say this for obvious reasons – but I should have done exactly what Adam told me to do (I can hear the I told u so’s already…) but I chickened out. I just couldn’t do it, how the hell do you slip it in to conversation?? “umm, by the way I just want to have a casual ‘thing’ with you so don’t get attached….”.

Couldn’t do it, every way I looked at it, it just sounded pompous. I did manage to slip my views on relationships in to the conversation on a couple of occasions though and he said a few things which I thought were quite promising.
One was the term “play buddies” which I assumed is a nicer way of saying f@ck buddies & the other was “at least I know where I stand with you”. Which made me think I kinda got my point across. I should have been a bit pro active with that last comment & asked him where he thought he stood, but I didn’t.

Anyway, I was feeling kinda good about it all on Thursday, then at 10.30am (2 hours after I last saw him) I get this txt “Thanx 4 the best night sweetie… I’m feeling on top of the world, I hope u have a unreal day and I’ll talk 2u 2night…xxx”. I basically went “Oh, shit” Anyway, we had a quick chat Thursday night, he sent me a few txt’s over the weekend & at one stage wanted to call me but I didn’t respond to that message… & he’s going to give me a buzz tonight. Friends txt & call each other, right? We get on really well. No big deal…

I did followed through on point no. 2 of Adam’s txt “No more outings, gives him the wrong idea”. We just ended up getting take away & staying in.

Oh & just in case you’re wondering, it was only 4 times – we did have to eat & I did have work the next day )

Also, before I leave you, I just have to say I had a fantastic weekend! I took Friday off work so had a extra, extra long weekend & met up with a friend in Byron Bay. Byron’s awesome! The weather was perfect! I had a blast! & dancing on the tables at Cheeky Monkeys rocks! But can I just say I’ll never get males (I think that’s already obvious form what I’ve written above but there’s more to it).

What in god’s name does a guy (sorry, that should read ‘drunk guy’) think he’s going to accomplish by going up to a girl & going “you’re hot” & telling her to kiss him? Then pestering her all night after she says no? Ok, granted if he were cute it might work… but seriously, I feel like I have “LOSERS NEED ONLY APPLY” sign stuck to my forehead, that & “NO ONE OVER 23 NEED APPLY”. I know I supposedly look young but when 18 year olds are trying to pick you up, it’s like, “Honey, I’m almost 10 years older than you!!!”. Talk about frustrating!! I spose it’s a good thing that I’m not looking for a relationship huh.

Well I better get back to work. I know I’ve been rambling on for ages, sorry if boredom’s set in, but in short there are 2 more things that rate a mention.

Things I did for the first time this weekend -
1: sunbathed topless. Very liberating! plenty of 30+ sunscreen was on hand
2: got very stoned in Nimbin. I met a local there & at first I was a little wary of him as he was missing a few front teeth & looked a pretty dodgy but we got talking & he brought my friend & I a drink at a ‘smoking’ cafe, it was very cool!

I’ll end this post by saying that I’m very tired at the moment. I got back to Sydney at 7am this morning & started work & 8.30am. My brain is not really functioning so if this post makes no sense please for give me!

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I have a slight problem (its probably just in my head), I need input…

You know how I wrote about the boy with the piercing? Well, we’ve been keeping in touch & there happened to be a drunken phone call on Saturday night (Sunday morning) I sent him a txt & then he called me.

Anyway, he’s like “I’d like to take you out to dinner” & I was like “yeah ok, maybe Wednesday”. He’s a nice enough guy & I enjoy hanging out with him etc but there’s no way I want anything serious, he’s only 21… (6 years younger than me!) This sounds so bad but he’s not really my type, relationship wise – how shallow am I!!

Last night he called me again & he’s like so where do you want to go, do you want to do something “ROMANTIC” or just casual? The alarm bells started ringing as soon as he said the word romantic & now I’m freaking out. I was like, “something causal would be good”. In one of our conversations, when we were talking about my ex, I said that I still wasn’t up for a relationship etc. So I’d thought I’d already kinda put it out there & now I’m not to sure how to handle the situation…

I’m probably over reacting but I don’t want to end up been one of those bitchy girls that just uses guys… I’d much rather be up front but then I don’t want to make a fool of myself if he’s just in it for fun too…

Tonight should be interesting…

Thoughts anyone???

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I have had the best weekend & I need to share, hope you don’t mind Adam. Apart form telling everyone I see that I got my belly button pierced yesterday (btw it looks awesome!!! who would have thought my stomach was so cute/sexy!) I had the best sex ever! I’m still on a buzz so excuse all the exclamation marks & the swearing but there’s no other words for it. I think I can help to sum up the experience in four words – “Prince Alfred” “Tongue Ring” (hence the title of this post). Not to mention stamina! 6 times!

Oh & I’ve got one for the record books, I was talking to my mum on the phone this morning ‘as you do’ & telling her about my weekend & told her about his piercings, one: she thought the condom would rip (it doesn’t) and two: she goes I’ve never really liked tongue kissing anyway (re: the tongue ring) & I was like “umm, mum, it’s not for kissing that’s amazing” I made her blush – I just wish I could have seen it!!!! My mum NEVER gets embarrassed, it was hilarious!

Anyway, I have to start up my own online diary, so many things to write down!!!!! 2004 is going to be fantastic! I’m doing things I never thought I would ever do. My trip round Oz was amazing & I can’t wait to take off again – next time it’ll be the world lets just hope that everything goes to plan & I’ll be out of here March or April.

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I agree with you Dan (pleased to meet ya by the way), sex definitely is a control thing, but I don’t think it directly relates to bj’s or oral sex though. It has never once crossed my mind that if I give a guy a bj I’ll have the advantage/control over the situation…. believe me the full body massage with oil works much better

I think control is more a mental thing, allowing how much of yourself your going to give to the situation & how much you can, as Dan put it, “make someone go weak at the knees, scream your name to the heavens then pass out from the most amazing orgasm of their lives”.
After the first one night stand I can remember thinking – umm ok so when do I start to feel cheap – didn’t happen! I was in control of how I felt & what I did, I’d had a good night & obviously so did he cause he came back for more…

Anyway, I do have a opinion on the receiving of oral sex though. My ex could never get it right so it was never really mind blowing. Which leads me to what you were saying Adam about wanting a girl to tell you what she wants. My ex hated when I’d start to “suggest” to him what he should do. U see this is where it gets tricky if a girls not supposed to have slept with multiple guys how the hell is she supposed to talk about it without everyone out there thinking she’s a slut? I’ll give it a go anyway… ;o) I’m just going to be honest. I’ve slept with 2 guys since my ex (no long division here!). One lasted about 6 weeks & he’d love it when I’d tell him what got me off. On a side note: first important lesion that I’ve learnt with the whole sexual freedom thing (don’t know if it applies for guys) is not to keep the repeated one night (casual) thing going with the same guy for more than a few weeks. I ended up falling for him, just a little, but not something that I really needed to do at the time. It had it’s good & bad points. Bad, that I feel for him. Good, cause the sex just kept getting better!!!!
Anyway, the second since my ex was just a one night stand & when I said “a little to the left” he shied away, so go figure”…? My take on it is that on one hand there are some guys out there that like it & on the other hand I think that some guys get a bit intimidated by it…?

Slut v’s nice girl…
I think we’ll have to blame this one on society as a whole & stereotypical norms…
I’m a pretty up front person, in case you can’t tell & I’d hate to think that I’d have to lie about my sexual history – not that there’s a lot to lie about at the moment but that’s not the point. I’m a big believer that every experience you encounter adds to you as a person so to lie about it doesn’t go down to well (no pun intended). I might have to do a bit more thinking on this one….

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I’ve taken it upon my self to comment on this one cause I think it’s such a interesting topic & is basically a whole new world for me at the moment. Plus I have questions.

Having sex with a number of different people v’s the one partner thing… well in all honestly at 27 it’s only now something that I can really have a opinion on. I was brought up to believe in the whole no sex before marriage thing, well I didn’t quite make it to the vows before the act but I did marry the guy – but that’s another story.

My ex & I split at the beginning of the year & I can now say I’ve had a little more experience in the bedroom department, nothing meaningful – just great sex. Sex can be fantastic with one partner but with me, cause I’d only ever been with my ex, I always had that “I wonder what it’d be like with someone else” thought creeping through my head (yes even when I was soooo in love with my ex, shocking I know). To cut a long story short, at present, I’m a huge fan of the one night stand.

Now comes my questions:

The whole slut v’s nice girl thing?
When does this come into play and why do girls even have to worry about it! Is equality really out there? Is it still the time old thing if a girl sleeps around she’s a slut if a guy does he’s a stud…

How should the morning after thing work?
Basically I’ve just taken their lead so things have been pretty uncomplicated but are there any do’s & don’ts I need to know about?

From the male prospective, if a girl sleeps with a guy on the first night is there any chance of a relationship happneing? (not that I’m really looking for one but this intresting stuff!!!)

I think that’s it for now… )

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