*smile* - I never thought I’d ever write a ‘Dear Katie’ letter…. (heck, I never thought I’d write a ‘Dear Anyone’ letter, but hey).
It is at defined moments in ones life when one has an ephiphany of sorts, and realises that to truly live, one needs to accept where they are in the universe and to let some things go.
With that in mind it’s time for me to let you go Katie…..
I could spend pages telling you my thoughts and feelings and what I thank has happened. I could spend pages trying to make you see something that I want you to see, what I think is better for you, and how I think you’re making a mistake, and how the universe would be so much better if you were with me.
But you know what, you’re not me Katie, and I shouldn’t be telling you how to live your life or what you need to be feeling…. And right now, I don’t believe you’re in any kind of position to be open for those things to happen. (Ed: I sincerely apologise, that’s not meant to come across as derogatory, it’s simply my observation of the pain that I perceive that I see in you)
That journey, only you can take it, and I had completely forgotten that until today. In wanting the very best for you (and I genuinely do), I forgot that I can’t make it all better, I can’t always take away someone elses’ pain and even if the answers that I have are right for me, it doesn’t mean that they’re right for you.
So for that, I apologise.
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I love you Katie, I know it now as much as I’ve known it since that morning when we laid in your bed and we opened up to each other and I smiled for the first time in a very long time. And I was happy. And for that, I’ll always (always) be grateful, because it’s moments like that, no matter what happens, that will stay with me in my heart, and they are feelings I had long since locked away years before…..
However, for your own reasons (and I’m not going to assume to know what they are), you don’t love me. And to be frank, I deserve for someone to love and cherish me in exactly the same way that I love you.
So I’m going to be unselfish and I’m going to let you go Katie, because I do love you, and to truly love someone is to set them free.
I wish you the absolute happiness in life that you deserve, and in another time and space, if/when you ever want to catch up with me (for all the right reasons), then I’ll be here.
A xx (x’s are the hugs, right? :P)
Ps - Do me that favour and watch the movie, Stranger Than Fiction. I sincerely believe there’s a fantastic message in it, and now that I’m letting you go you can truly know that I want you to watch it for you, and not for my own agenda.
Pps - This is possibly some of the most appalling grammar I’ve ever seen, I’m sure you understand that today is a fairly emotional day and you’ll let me off the hook just this once 
