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In a way that I simply cannot explain to you, this will be my most profound post since I started writing this thing.

1. I became an Uncle on Thursday Night.  Daniel is 7 pound 4 of the most amazing flesh and body I have ever witnessed.  Thinking of him even now makes me want to weep (I really do wish I was joking)

2. I finally ‘get it’.  In a single, uncharacteristic, enlightening and joyous moment, I worked it out. 

I realised that my entire life has revolved around the premise that I never let anyone in.  Obvious to the rest of the world, completely oblivious to me until I found myself writing some of the most profound stuff my idiotic brain has ever conjured. 

I hope one day that the wisdom in my note to my new Nephew will help him avoid a life like mine.

Because without speaking a single word, without doing anything other than just being alive, he’ll be the person that will have been responsible for helping me to redefine what I call life……

Adam

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Two things changed my world as I know it this weekend, I became an Uncle and somebody I care about deeply told me that they didn’t believe they wouldn’t live to be old.

This morning as I sit on (another) plane on the way back home, these emotions both run at errant discourse to my own feelings on life, love and children that I felt my most appropriate form of release would be to write about it.

Today I write to you as a man both elated and scared…

I can only begin to share with you the deep emotional transition that occurred in my heart when I first laid my eyes on darling Daniel on Thursday night.  From climbing onto the plane a man without ties to his familys looming heritage to learning that my darling nephew had been born, born into a world as the first grandson of his generation and as the man that would carry the legacy of our family name into the next, I couldn’t help but allow myself to be totally awed and overwhelmed by this moment of clarity and peace.

To stare at my darling nephew and to feel the heat rise in my neck and chest, to feel and see the slow, rhythmic bumping of his tiny chest and to connect with life, real life on such an intimate level and I was moved beyond recognition.

I wrapped my arms tightly around my brother and I wept inside for the blessed moment that bought him safely into this world, fingers and toes in all the right places and crying in a way that only babies can cry.  I wept inside for the years of my life that I have lived and not loved, for the moments that i’ve let roll by and for the emotions that i’ve taught myself are not OK to feel.  I wept inside because my darling nephew represents the renewal, the truth and the beauty that is life, embodied and emblazened in a coocooned body of thin flesh, dazzling eyes and a soul that deserves all my protection in the world.

To understand true happiness one needs to recognise that they’re no in control of it and to respect that it’s not something you choose, it’s something you are.  To understand how I currently feel when I think of my darling nephew is akin to true happiness.  Happiness that resides in my soul, happiness that makes me protective and guarded, happiness that lets me sit on a plane and shed gentle tears of much-dreamed of bliss and peacefulness.
The juxtposition of life is the life without, about expiration and about the disembodiment of the mind and soul from the body.  It’s death.

I once listened to a profound piece of advice.  Death is never dignified.  Only in life is there dignity and you need to cherish it for all that it embodies.

Life is always brief, always early and reduces it’s receiver to a body of flesh, a brain without life, a heart wiithout rhythym and soul without a home.

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So I found it quite profound that I heard someone I care about tell me that she expected her life to expire early, and that this had no impact on her daily life.

Now this person doesn’t reduce the quality of her life or reset her expectations around the assumption that her life will be short, though I sit here today in wonderment of how a beautiful soul comes to the logical (and some would say reverent) belief that they will expire, a flame extinguished without prejudice and to leave an enitre universe surrounding them, passionately wishing that life hadn’t been so cruel.

I sit here today with a plea to my fellow man, and subseuqently to this girl, a plea to live passionately and resolutely.  To live through fear and humour and angst and suffering and to come out the other side.

Cheat death I say.  Cheat the moments that shorten it.  Cheat life and live by your own rules.

….

There’s something this person doesn’t know about me yet.  I felt exactly the same way for almost my entire life.  I thought that my time was going to be short.  Not exciting or worldly, but cut short by some irrelevant event, my body and mind seperated in a brief (yet peaceful) moment of pain followed by an endless sea of a universe without fear.

As somebody who has lived life and has believed that it will be shortened, I know that it changes your perspective.  I know that it changes your outlook and I know that it makes you a different person.  Life is harmony between several billions moments of random and 1 moment of joy wrapped into a tightly spun ball.  We all look at the other side of the fence and believe that we should do something better, be something better, live more acutely and ultimately be a better person.  But what if life isn’t that complex.  What if it’s just about being alive…… 

So on this fateful day, I realise that I am having a moment of clarity.  As I sit here in front of my keyboard, I realise right this very second that I just found something that I need to do.

I need to shohw this person *life*…..

And to my darling new nephew, without even knowing it you just showed me that life is nothing but possibility….

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A Rabbit Vs a Snake….

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I’m not sure what 1 & 2 are yet, but this one can’t be the top of my priority list as i’ll have this one under control in the next month.

I need to lose 5 kilos

02/01/07 – 06:12 – 90.5kgs
03/01/07 – 08:20 – 89.7kgs (6.5k run)
04/01/07 – 07:15 – 89.9kgs (junk food last night)
05/01/07 - 07:15 – 90.7kgs (6.5k run)
06/01/07 – 07:03 – 89.3kgs (?!?!?! again – oh well)
07/01/07 – 07:46 – 89.0kgs (12k run)
08/01/07 – 07:10 – 89.4kgs (birthday party = crap food)

Week 1 Weight Lost: 1.1kgs

09/01/07 – 07:12 – 89.7kgs (2 hour walk + junk food, d’oh!)
10/01/07 - 06:40 – 90.5kgs (6.5k run)
11/01/07 – 07:00 – 91.5kgs (adventure run ~6k)
12/01/07 – 07:35 – 88.5kgs (wtf x 50?!?!? - scales may be dead…)
13/01/07 – 05:35 – 89.5kgs (I give up! …. fucking scales…)
14/01/07 – n/a
15/01/07 – 07:25 – 89.1kgs (15.5k bike + 1k swim)

Week 2 Weight Lost: 0.3kgs
Total Weight Lost: 1.4kgs

16/01/07 – 08:22 – 90.3kgs (2k run + 1.05k swim)
17/01/07 – 08:53 – 91.0kgs (6.5k run)
18/01/07 – 08:26 – 89.3kgs (2k run + 1.2k swim)
19/01/07 – 08:52 – 90.3kgs (6.5k run)

Updated every day, let’s see how we go.

Adam
p.s – Number #1 goal of losing weight. Track everything

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The easiest way to love your job is not to do it. Here are the top 10 ways to avoid work at work.

1 Ignore all emails

Working in the mail room is not generally a career choice for most people. Yet with the epidemic of email most people spend half their working lives slaving away in their own personal computer mail room. However, if you let emails sink to the bottom of the pile and go unanswered they will eventually become irrelevant. If something really matters, the person who sent it will eventually call you to ask about it.

2 Never offer to make coffee

In an open-plan office there is a ritual where everyone waits hours for the first person to say: “Who wants a coffee?” That person then finds themselves in the kitchen for the rest of the day working as a junior catering manager. Also remember that nobody ever gets to the top of an organisation by drinking stinky teas. No one wants to have a meeting in a room that smells of peppermint, rhubarb or aloe vera.

3 Get yourself noticed

Getting ahead in business means getting noticed but working hard makes you almost invisible. It’s a lot better to work hard at getting noticed. What senior management likes more than anything else is junior managers who show initiative and volunteer to do things. Of course, volunteering for things and doing things are two different matters. Once you have got the credit for volunteering for a project, get as far away as possible from it before the work kicks in. The best way to do that is to volunteer for another project.

4 Remember that less is more

You would think lazy people form an inert mass at the bottom of an organisation. On the contrary, they are found at all levels in business, right up to the boardroom. The reason for this is simple: when something goes wrong in business it’s generally because someone somewhere has tried to do something. Obviously, if you don’t do anything, you can’t be blamed when it goes wrong. People who sit all day like a lemon, busily straightening paperclips, are therefore the only people with a 100 per cent record of success and with that sort of record promotion is inevitable.

5 Master the jargon

It’s vital you know that for the envelope to be pushed out of the box and through the window of opportunity, customers should first become stakeholders and then delighted beyond their expectations. To do this, top executives will go forward the extra mile while wearing the shoes of the customer. And remember, the customer is king (unless she is a woman).
6 Manage without bosses

The difference between a boss and your bank is that a bank sometimes gives you credit for things. Bosses give you things to do and then blame you for doing them. What they never understand is that if they didn’t give you things to do in the first place, you wouldn’t make so many spectacular foul-ups. Naturally there are good bosses and bad bosses. Some take the trouble to get interested in what you are doing, encourage your personal development and provide you with a stimulating and challenging work environment. There are also good bosses who lock themselves in their rooms, have five-hour lunches and leave you completely alone.

7 Avoid paper

Steer clear of all paper as the thing it’s most likely to have on it is work. There is a saying that a job is not finished until the paperwork is done. It’s a saying that is not used much these days because most people’s entire job is paperwork. You can finish your paperwork and it will have multiplied and be back on your desk by the following day.

8 Never answer a phone

Answering a phone in an office generally means speaking to a customer or your boss. As neither will call unless they want something, answering the phone will probably mean doing work. Don’t pick up a phone unless you know it’s a social call. As you will never know whether an incoming call is social or not, it’s best to make a lot of pre-emptive outgoing social calls.

9 Say no to networking

In business, they still say it’s not what you know, it’s who you know, which is a bit depressing when you have just completed 15 years of formal education. Networkers give you their card within the first 30 seconds of conversation. After about 20 minutes telling you how brilliant they are, ask whether they would like your card. Then return their own to them and watch them slip it straight back into their pocket.

10 Steer clear of meetings

Half of every working day is spent in meetings, half of which are not worth having, and of those that are, half the time is wasted. Which means nearly one-third of office life is spent in small rooms with people you don’t like, doing things that don’t matter. A tightly run meeting is one of the most frightening things in office life. These are meetings for which you have to prepare, in which you have to work and after which you have to take action. Fortunately, these meetings are as rare as a sense of gay abandon in the finance department.

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This is what happens when you archive *all* your e-mail….. So in a strange kind of way, i’m going to let you all know a lot more about me.. i’m going to post a lot of my old letters (names removed to protect the innocent).

I’m not going to tell you who, where or when, I think that will ruin the montage, but it’ll be a heck of a journey!

And with that in mind, I bring you the first piece that I stumbled across tonight…

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Remember:

That I’m just scared out of my wits right now …. I like you a lot. I certainly like you a lot than I’m willing to admit. And it seems the more I talk to you and the more I look forward to seeing you, the more the brains basic instinct for survival (based on a serious track record of being hurt, as I’m sure you know about) kicks in.

For me, it permeates itself by (literally) trying to scare you away. However with everything in this world, I’m relatively opaque. I’ll tell you what every person feels but never says out loud (they only say it out loud because society has taught them that you’re either going to harm or be harmed), and for that I usually end up scaring certain people away, or alternatively attracting the wrong type of person.

I don’t want to scare you away (name), and you’re certainly not the wrong type of person..

With all this in mind, please take my incoherent rambling with the appropriate grain of salt, and if you’re really tough, realise that in my mind and in my heart, this is just a permeation of me really liking you…. It seems like such a simple and noble statement, but it’s absolutely true. I like you. (heck, it even feels good to say it!).

I am looking forward (immensely) to seeing you and I want to pick you up at the airport. And for a million and one daggy and romantic reasons I want to know that instead of hedging my bets, or only dipping my toes in the water that I’m going to let myself be me around you. For we might get hurt, we might just become friends or we might just make it and find something that we’ve always been searching for…. Though no matter what happens, we will have taken the journey, and we will know that we have put our best foots forward, and that, and the end of the day is what separates us from the people that we don’t want to be with.

I’m confident that you know what I’m talking about here, and I’m absolutely certain that you know how I’m feeling about this stuff. And I don’t want to scare you away (name), not in the slightest!

So for all the reasons of you just being you, and for all the reasons that you’ll get to show me your side of the universe. And i’m sure that along the way I’ll realise that there are some things that are different about us, and that will be a good thing. I also know that with a little bit of willingness to change, I’ll probably find out a whole side to things I’d never considered before….. And as far as I’m concerned, that is what makes the journey, and certainly submitting to that journey, makes it all worthwhile.

I don’t want to delay seeing you, and I/We are going to have to commit the time and resources to making sure that we don’t get caught up in the whirlwind of the phone where dreams become reality and we don’t have to follow through when it comes to the day that someone has to wash the dishes. I want my time with you to be real, I want it to be without pretension, I want it to be doing all the things I’d normally do with someone I want to be with. I want us to find out and know if it’s right with us so that we can move forward (together, or apart) and find our happiness, wherever that may lie.

So I don’t want to scare you away, I just want to be honest and not second-guess my own feelings

I don’t want to scare you away (name), because I actually, and genuinely, really do like you a lot.

I hope this reaches you sane and well. I’ll miss talking to you, and for all the reasons that I want you to meet the people in my life when we see each other, part of that process is allowing you to know who I really am…

Here’s hoping you’re looking forward to taking some (or a lot!) of steps on that journey with me

A xxoo

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Just a great song, something that I was listening to when I first got to know Katie.  When I hear it i’ll always think of her…

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Heard this again today and it reminded of a past relationship that didn’t work…..  It’s good and bad to reflect sometimes on the things that make you both happy *and sad*… most people don’t take the time for that…

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Here’s a prime example of “Men Are From Mars, Women Are From Venus” offered by an English professor from the University of Colorado for an actual class assignment:

The professor told his class one day: “Today we will experiment with a new form called the tandem story. The process is simple. Each person will pair off with the person sitting next to them.

As homework tonight, one of you will write the first paragraph of a short story. You will e-mail your partner that paragraph and send another copy to me. The partner will read the first paragraph and then add another paragraph to the story and send it back, also sending another copy to me.

The first person will then add a third paragraph, and so on back-and-forth.

Remember to re-read what has been written each time in order to keep the story coherent. There is to be absolutely NO talking outside of the e-mails and anything you wish to say must be written in the e-mail. The

story is over when both agree a conclusion has been reached.”

The following was actually turned in by two of his English students:

Rebecca and Gary.

THE STORY: (first paragraph by Rebecca)

At first, Laurie couldn’t decide which kind of tea she wanted. The chamomile, which used to be her favorite for lazy evenings at home, now reminded her too much of Carl, who once said, in happier times, that he liked chamomile. But she felt she must now, at all costs, keep her mind off Carl. His possessiveness was suffocating, and if she thought about him too much her asthma started acting up again. So chamomile was out of the question.

(second paragraph by Gary)

Meanwhile, Advance Sergeant Carl Harris, leader of the attack squadron now in orbit over Skylon 4, had more important things to think about than the neuroses of an air-headed asthmatic bimbo named Laurie with whom he had

spent one sweaty night over a year ago. “A.S. Harris to Geostation 17,” he said into his transgalactic communicator. ” Polar orbit established. No sign of resistance so far…” But before he could sign off a bluish particle beam flashed out of nowhere and blasted a hole through his ship’s cargo bay. The jolt from the direct hit sent him flying out of his seat and across the cockpit.

(Rebecca)

He bumped his head and died almost immediately, but not before he felt one last pang of regret for psychically brutalizing the one woman who had ever had feelings for him. Soon afterwards, Earth stopped its pointless hostilities towards the peaceful farmers of Skylon 4. “Congress Passes Law Permanently Abolishing War and Space Travel”, Laurie read in her newspaper one morning. The news simultaneously excited her and bored her. She stared out the window, dreaming of her youth, when the days had passed unhurriedly and carefree, with no newspaper to read, no television to distract her from her sense of innocent wonder at all the beautiful things around her. “Why must one lose one’s innocence to become a woman?” she pondered wistfully.

(Gary)

Little did she know, but she had less than 10 seconds to live. Thousands of miles above the city, the Anudrian mothership launched the first of its lithium fusion missiles. The dimwitted wimpy peaceniks who pushed the Unilateral Aerospace Disarmament Treaty through the congress had left Earth a defenseless target for the hostile alien empires who were determined to destroy the human race. Within two hours after the passage of the treaty the Anudrian ships were on course for Earth, carrying enough firepower to pulverize the entire planet. With no one to stop them, they swiftly initiated their diabolical plan. The lithium fusion missile entered the atmosphere unimpeded. The President, in his top-secret mobile submarine headquarters on the ocean floor off the coast of Guam, felt the inconceivably massive explosion, which vaporized poor, stupid Laurie.

(Rebecca)

This is absurd. I refuse to continue this mockery of literature. My writing partner is a violent, chauvinistic semi-literate adolescent.

(Gary)

Yeah? Well, my writing partner is a self-centered tedious neurotic whose attempts at writing are the literary equivalent of Valium. ” Oh, shall I have chamomile tea? Or shall I have some other sort of F–KING TEA???

Oh no, what am I to do? I’m such an air headed bimbo who reads too many Danielle Steele novels!”

(Rebecca)

As*h@le.

(Gary)

B*tch!

(Rebecca)

F**K YOU – YOU NEANDERTHAL!!

(Gary)

In your dreams, Ho. Go drink some tea.

(TEACHER)

A+ – I really liked it.

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What a beautiful song about love and life……. Pete Murray : Opportunity….

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