Edited apalling grammar sometime on the 30th August
Really folks, the last four months has just passed me by in a complete whisper. My motivation for anyting other than work, Kath and beer has been non-existent and i’ve really needed to just get away from everything and anything that could be harmful to me both now and in the future.
I think i’m starting to come out on the other side of that and regain some of my ‘Adamness’ back.
Exciting news that i’m starting my new job next Monday for a very cool, very considerate environmental and social sciences company (who also happen to be making quite a bit of money in the process) as a Projecct Manager which is where i’ve wanted to be in the last few years, so that’s a nice touch.
Was planning to head up to Brisbane to visit family, friends, Jasey, Chris and the rest of the gang though unfortunately this has now been put on hold until at least Christmas when I actually a)Get some holiday pay owed to me b)Kath gets some holidays, and c)Convince Kath that driving 2,000 kilometres (1,400 miles) is far more fun than just taking a 50 minute plane ride up.
Speaking of Kath. She stumbled onto my website a few days ago (so if you’re reading this babe, hello!) and that’s OK with me. I’m not sure if she’s going to read my past posts, i’m not sure if she’s going to continue to read my future ones. But this blog, this story, this epilogue (oh god that sounds wanky) is mine and it shows some of my warts (not all of them, but certainly some of them) and i’m happy for her to be seeing it.
Will it change the way I write, I don’t believe so. It’s been 9 months now and the last 2 months has started to see us settle and mold a little into something more of what i’d/we’d like to be. We’re being more open and honest and we’re starting to share things with each other that matter, so I think that this path of growth and understanding will be a good thing.
But no, I don’t want her sharing any of her deep and dark past secrets, nor do I need to share mine 
I suppose the other thing is that I don’t want this to become on of those ‘me and my girlfriend did this’ blogs. I want to intertwine details of the fun that I have with her (and my friends) but i’m also particuarly mindful that this blog is about my journey in the world, my feelings and my thoughts so that one day I can reflect on some of the things i’ve undertaken and the things that I could’ve, would’ve and should’ve done.
So what’s the latest really:
- I’m still fat.. 5 weeks of holidays will see you stack on quite a few kilos
- I’m still going to gym (though more feverently now, i’m at classes and they’re defined torture)
- I’m back studying again (who would’ve thought)
- I’m back drinking beer again on Thursday nights (always warms my heart to know I can drink with the boys and go to dodgy strip clubs)
- I’m *finally* starting to reply to e-mails (some are over 6 months old so thats fun) and starting to try to balance things.
- I’m still in debt but have a plan (ie a big consolidation loan) to get me out which will be nice
So really absolutely nothing and absolutely everything has changed. Isn’t it funny when you look back of the segments of your life and you realise that growth, listening, understanding and movement are all slow-and-steady. There are no quick-fixes and no easy outs. You just need to take it one day at a time and see where the world takes you, learn from your mistakes and try to be the best person you can be, all-the-while why reasoning that you can’t possibly be perfect.
I think i’m ok with that today.
Loving all your work
Adam
