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Professionally and personally was a bit of a low-point. After over-reacting, talking at my boss far too much and generally pissing off some very qualified individuals, I left with not such a great taste in my mouth.

Resolution (for today): Back off entirely… let people come to me with issues, progress some local issues at my site, then get back into the swing of things on Monday.

Personally things didn’t go so well either. After the new ‘you’re spending too much time here’ rules were enforced, I arrived at the girls place in absoutely no mood for anything.
After limited hello’s to the housemate (yay for being childish!) I trundled off to bed, keen to get some sleep.
Sleep (as you could probably imagine) was not coming to me in way, shape or form. Images of the project failing and my relationship crumbling because we never get to see each other haunted my woken thoughts, daring me to will myself to sleep.

This morning I left without a goodbye to the housemate (also noting above attitude with work, trying to be minimalist today) and some snippy comments in both directions, I came to learn that I feel very alone on this one.
I have continued not to settle at my house of residence (though it’s getting there), and now the girl agrees with her housemate that i’m spending too much time at her place.

ed: The way to feel someone feel most uncomfortable about spending time at someone else’s residence … mention the above to them

I must admit it’s difficult when your partner doesn’t agree with you on things like this. To keep things relative, the girl doesn’t feel comfortable about ever staying at my place (you can read the previous posts to understand why), and to be fair to me, I have never, and will never push her to do this.

Splitting time between households would easily create an equilibrium in the uncomfortable stakes, but I don’t think that it’s justified for both of us to be uncomfortable when only one of us has to. I just want some support when i’m the one feeling isolated.

Or maybe i’m just being a girl….

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