I can’t sleep. In fact I haven’t been sleeping for days really. The inevitable stress of moving, leaving family, friends and job are all loading themselves on my mind in a fairly heavy fashion.
I’m exhausted from all the running around, chasing and lack of sleep. I’ve eaten nothing but takeaway food for days (can’t really help that one, no decent food in this town and I have no fridge due to the moving out)
I understand that this is a growth process for me, but I still feel alone as such. I mean I have everyone around me, but ultimately it is only I who can take this journey, only I who can work out which path to take.
On the work front, things are (slowly) picking up. There may be some light at the end of the 5-week negotiated tunnel. Watch this space for updates.
As far as family and friends go, i’m only going to disappoint really. I barely have time to get all the work-related functions out of the way and i’ll be on the plane to Sydney. At this point all I can do is take it one day at at time and see where the journey takes me.
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There’s always two sides to the coin when it comes to having an open website. Due to a lot of the readers who visit, I now realise that many of my personal thoughts and feelings are sheltered here, and the reader on the street sees not the real Adam, just the parts where i’m not in conflict with anyone. I am going to make more of a conscious effort to push that envelope, start to open up and be honest with you all about how i’m feeling and what’s happening in my life.
It’s not easy…. If you open up and say what’s on your mind you sound like you’re rubbing it in people’s faces. Don’t open up and people are bored (esp. the author of this page)
I am happy folks. Happy to be doign what feels right and happy to be pursuing my happiness. I realise that the next month will see to things settling down, becoming routine and getting back on track. I just want it to start happening right now.
Adam
Because the boy was recently in Brisbane (and I missed out on the concert…)
John Mayer - Your body is a wonderland….
Truth is, all womens bodies are wonderlands…. I can never quite grasp the intrinsic appeal of a womans smell, touch and caress. They idolise softness, sensuality, compassion and beauty all undelined with a fine tint of sexual energy that us mere males can never hope to possess.
So to every woman tonight, I dedicate this song to you…
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We got the afternoon
You got this room for two
One thing I’ve left to do
Discover me
Discovering you
One mile to every inch of
Your skin like porcelain
One pair of candy lips and
Your bubblegum tongue
‘Cause if you want love
We’ll make it
Swimming a deep sea
Of blankets
Take all your big plans
And break ‘em
This is bound to be a while
Your body Is a wonderland
Your body is a wonder (I’ll use my hands)
Your body Is a wonderland
Something ’bout the way the hair falls in your face
I love the shape you take when crawling towards the pillowcase
You tell me where to go and
Though I might leave to find it
I’ll never let your head hit the bed
Without my hand behind it
you want love?
We’ll make it
Swimming a deep sea
Of blankets
Take all your big plans
And break ‘em
This is bound to be a while
Your body Is a wonderland
Your body is a wonder (I’ll use my hands)
Your body Is a wonderland
Damn baby
You frustrate me
I know you’re mine all mine all mine
But you look so good it hurts sometimes
Your body Is a wonderland
Your body is a wonder (I’ll use my hands)
Your body Is a wonderland
Your body is a wonderland
It only occurred to me a couple of hours before my departure that I was undertaking the last major drive in my car.
Funny considering this relic has taken me well over 300,000km’s, 4 major relationships, gratituous amounts of antics, nights out and 3 attempts at a university degree.
It was a gift for my 18th birthday, and a car that I had always wanted. This car represents a strong between my teenage years, my past, and the present. It’s always amazing for me to realise that while some things have changed in the past 8 years, some things have remained exactly the same.
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The changes continue to come thick and fast in regard to my working situation, and as always, nothing is ever as it seems. I suppose I just need to take it all one day at a time and see where my destination is.
I am spending the best part of my weekend with Matt and Dan (and his girl) and trying to enjoy every minute of it before i’m off to Sydney to seek my fortune.
Took the time to see Kill Bill: Part II.
Verdict: Better than the first.. and I loved the first..
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I am still working to come to grips with the fact that the new jobs I’m applying for i’m actually qualified for, and subsequently deserve the (relatively) large sums of money they’re offering. Until you take the time to go looking you don’t realise your worth in the marketplace I suppose.
Me, i’m just trying to realise my worth as a person, mistakes or otherwise.
Adam
