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Now that I have someone in my life, i’m more concerned about the content that I share with the greater universe. Not so much that i’m worried that said partner will find/read my site (she knows it exists, she wouldn’t ask me for the address, she’s cool like that), more that i’m worried what other people will garner from my passionate debacles on these pages.

I’ve noticed that Jessica has gone from ‘nice-if-you’re-too-stupid-to-realise-i’m-living-life’ to ‘you-can’t-possibly-know-this-wasn’t-my-real-personality-in-the-first-place’ and I have to admitt i’m slightly jealous.

I have watched and adored the transformation from sharing and caring, to a heightened crescendo of intimate details (or, at least, the *illusion* of intimate details!), shared fears and general malaise that exists on the cusp of ‘first-met’ to ‘going-steady’ …..

As life would have it, too many things are happening in paralell and i’m just taking that one moment at a time. Also, I can only write from work (my iMac will be with me soon!) so my chances to get down what i’m really feeling are limited. But just for something different, how about I give it a try.

I’m tired and exhausted and happy. I’ve made some mistakes (one big one) and learning very quickly to adjust to the new lifestyle, new pace and new flatmate. Enjoying being with the girl more and more and facing up to the reality that i’m actually having a good time and there’s no need to sabotage things. Friends aren’t as good as i’d like, but I understand that at this point in time there’s a journey that we all need to take. Inevitably (?) our paths will cross again, but right now it’s just going to happen one minute at a time.

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I’ve become a spending-bitch. New clothes, new toys, new everything. I do all this to come home to the significant other who’s purchased twice as much with half as much money because she uses the big sales-warehouses… …

me = stupid male with credit card, slightly better taste than 6 months ago and no brains.

she = girl with less money (relatively speaking), more brains and significantly better taste than i’ve ever accounted for.

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I miss Rachel. Strange really that I knew her for so little time and pissed her off severely when I wasn’t honest with quite a few people. But she’s cool and cute (ed: yes, I said ‘cute’ just because I can see it pissing her off, albeit in a ‘cute’ way :P) and funny and there’s always more under the surface than what appears.

I’ve always been curious to know what it’s like when the world thinks your innocent when you’re really kinked… hmmmmm

Ok.. dump done. There’s some other great news I heard today but I can’t share (it goes like that sometimes) but hopefully we’ll be hearing more of it in the future.

Loving all your work
A

p.s - yes, I know I talk endlessly about opening up more. I’m working at it… I promise