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Please understand …

March 12th, 2004

So as I sit here at work (again) half-pissed, mentally and emotionally unstable from the violent mix of desires, hungers and fears I start to contemplate the nature of relationships, on any level.

I have had the opportunity to read the exquisite book ?The Bride Stripped Bare? which is a brilliant mix of sexuality, sensuality and passion rolled under the guise of an anonymous British author sharing with the world her deepest, darkest sexual secrets via way of exploration and exploitation. I was riveted from cover to cover.

However, the point most poignant to me was the slip in the book which states ?A brilliant book of love and passion, which asks, can you ever really know another person?

Never a truer word was spoken with that last part.

I have lived a life believing that my parents had a perfect relationship? not that everything was perfect, by no means, but a perfect understanding of each other. It is only in the past few months that I?ve realised that there are things they know not of each other and that?s still ok.

I have secrets, secrets so deep I hide them from myself. I realised just a week ago that I will most likely never share these with my partner, nor do I need to.

To love someone is to take their life in your hands from ?today? ? and forevermore? you don?t judge them based on the past, just live and accept that some journeys need to be taken to bring them to you. Fear is the driver that separates most of us. This fear is exaggerated when it comes to loved ones and family.

My life is continuing to spiral in directions I?d never really considered. The painful reality of re-adjusting my friendships to more realistic levels is a hard road that I?ve had to make hard decisions on. I never want to hurt people but realise that in this life there are always going to be hurt. I have been hurt so many times in my past but I understand and respect that it really was the for the best, no matter how much I?d like to think otherwise.

Please know that I do this with a dark heart but also understand it?s of necessary requirement that I do what I do. I wish there was some way I could make it perfect, but alas, it is not to be.

Adam Uncategorized

Friday Five

March 12th, 2004

1. …your first grade teacher’s name?
Mrs Christensen

2. …your favorite Saturday morning cartoon?
Looney Tunes

3. …the name of your very first best friend?
Scott Snelling

4. …your favorite breakfast cereal?
Sultana Bran ?. Well actually it?s a ?heart-stopping-all-the-way-bacon-and-eggs-masterpiece? with a great newspaper, great company and tall, tall glasses of OJ.

5. …your favorite thing to do after school?
Ride my pushbike, play on the PC

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My Birthday Starsign

March 12th, 2004

Those born on February 27 are extremely insightful into the workings of the world around them. They spend a great deal of energy coming to understand the basic elements of everyday life-how things work, why people act the way they do, how to work to advantage with the environment-but this is only the beginning. From this solid reality base, February 27 people allow their questioning spirits to explore outward to social, international and universal spheres as well. Because they build solidly at each step of the way, they can confidently count on the wisdom they have culled from experience to see them through new and perhaps increasingly ambitious endeavours.

The greatest difficulties for February 27 people usually surface in their personal lives. Because they are extremely demanding individuals, and also since their intuitive choices in relationships are often not the most suitable for them to say the least, they can have tumultuous and often chaotic love lives. For some reason, for all of their understanding of the world and their capacity to make their way in it, they often know suprisingly little about themselves, other than what they think they want. To learn the difference between what they want and what they truly need is an important distinction for them to grasp and one which they hopefully make sooner rather than later in life. By satisfying their true needs they can, of course, find greater emotional stability and happiness. Too often they feel that their problems can be solved by a another person, and put too much energy into their romantic lives, instead of seeking solutions to their needs at a deeper level inside themselves. Given their emotional makeup, it is unlikely that those born on this day will experience much ?downtime? between relationships, but an extended period of alone could actually do them some good. Because of their thoughtful and sensitive nature, they should be able to accomplish much personal growth without outside help.

February 27 people are happiest when they can let their minds roam freely over a wide variety of subjects, and generally demand friends and mates who are also intellectually active. Those born on this day often struggle with their social environment in an attempt to somehow master it or perhaps redirect it. Their urge to dominate is very strong and because their magnetic powers are among the strongest in the entire year, they must be extremely careful not to overwhelm everyone around them.

If February 27 people lose moral direction they have a great potential for brining destruction to themselves and others. Their capacity for not only seeing the truth but also bringing what they desire to pass, through a rare combination of empathy and willpower, presents them with great ethical and moral challenges.

Numbers and Planets

Those born on the 27th of the month are rules by the number 9 (2+7=9) and by the planet Mars. The number 9 is powerful in its influence on other numbers (and number added to 9 yields that number: e.g 5+9=14, 4+1=5, and any number multiplied by 9 yields a 9: e.g, 9×5=45, 4+5=9) and February 27 people are similarly able to influence those around them. The planet Mars is forceful and aggressive, the combination of Mars with Neptune (ruler of Pisces) can grant February 27 people almost hypnotic power over the minds of others.

Tarot

The 9th card of the Major Arcana is The Hermit, who is usually depicted walking with a lantern and a stick; he represents meditation, isolation and quietude. The Hermit also signifies crystallised wisdom and ultimate discipline. He is a taskmaster who motivates by conscience and guides others on their path. This card points the way to the sort of spiritual development which February 27 people should pursue. The positive indications of this card are stick-to-it-iveness, purpose, profundity and concentration; negative qualities include dogmatism, intolerance, mistrust and discouragement.

Health

Those born on February 27 often know a suprising amount about health even though they may have no formal training. However, they periodically forget everything they know and personally go off in an entirely unhealthy direction. Having benefit of a medical or alternative health authority whom they trust is crucial to their well-being. Vigorous physical exercise is recommended for those born on this day (running, aerobics, gymnastics, weightlifting, rock climbing, ocean swimming) as well as sexual contentment with a steady partner. February 27 people are prone to both alcohol and sex-and-love addictions, so they must develop the willpower to keep their turbulent natures under control.

Advice

Bring your mastery over your environment to bear on yourself. Follow your spiritual path wherever it takes you, but be kind to those you meet on the way. Tend to your own personal business and don?t get sidetracked.

Strengths: Magnetic, Capable, Worldly
Weaknesses: Self-unaware, Demanding, Emotionally Chaotic

I hate to say it, but this is possibly the most accurate indication of my personality that I?ve ever seen? scary stuff?

Adam Uncategorized

Mini Update

March 9th, 2004

So things that are happening right now:

- Rachel is gone (I miss you babe!) ? :(
- Eve is pissed at me
- Work is powering along but wearing me down due to many hours in the establishment
- Work that I completed on a prior site is now falling apart and I don?t know why (I hate that!)
- I just realised that my arms aren?t as gangly as they were 6 weeks ago when I started swimming.. this is definitely a good thing
- I?m continuing to contemplate life, the universe and everything

Adam Uncategorized

Swimming Stats update

March 8th, 2004

Appearance: Still saggy but not nearly as bad as the ?post-holiday? sag
Laps last week: 58
Km?s last week: 1.45
Estimated laps this week: 83

Totals (since 02/02/04):

Laps: 214
Km?s : 5.35

And remember kids, Jesus did it for the chicks :)

Adam Uncategorized

Definitely Australian

March 8th, 2004

I?m definitely Australian? though I?ve never done 14?.

1) You?ve mimicked Alf Stewart from the TV show Home and Away?s broad, Australian accent, eg. ?push off, ya flamin? drongo!?
2) You?ve had an argument with your mate over whether Ford or Holden makes the better car!
3) You?ve done the ?hot sand? dance at the beach while running from the ocean back to your towel.
4) You know who Ray Martin is.
5) You start using words like ?reckon? and ?root? and call people ?mate?.
6) You stop greeting people with ?hello? and go straight to the ?how ya doin???
7) You?ve seriously considered running down the shop in a pair of Ugg Boots. 8) You own a pair of ugg boots.
9) You?ve been to a day-nighter cricket match and screamed out incomprehensibly until your throat went raw.
10) You kind of know the first verse to the national anthem, but don?t know what ?girt? means.
11) You have a story that somehow revolves around excess consumption of alcohol and a mate named ?Dave?.
12) You?ve risked attending an outdoor music festival on the hottest day of the year.
13) You?ve tried to hang off a clothesline while pretending you can fly.
14) You?ve had a visit to the emergency room after hanging off the clothesline pretending you can fly.
15) You own a pair of thongs for everyday use, and another pair of ?dress thongs? for special occasions
16) You don?t know what?s in a meat pie, and you don?t care.
17) You pronounce Australia as ?Stralya?
18) You call soccer soccer, not football
19) You?ve squeezed Vegemite through Jatz to make little Vegemite worms.
20) You suck your coffee through a Tim Tam.
21) You realise that lifeguards are the only people who can get away with wearing Speedos.
22) You pledge allegiance to Vegemite over Promite.
23) You understand the value of public holidays.
24) Your weekends are spent barracking for your favourite sports team.
25) You have a toilet dolly.
26) Your Mum Nana made it.
27) You?ve played beach cricket with a tennis ball and a bat fashioned out of a fence post.
28) You firmly believe that in the end, everything will be ok, and have told a mate in tough times that ?She?ll be right, mate?
29) You use the phrase, ?no worries? at least once a day.
30) You?ve been on a beach holiday and have probably stayed in a caravan.
31) You constantly shorten words to ?brekkie?, ?arvo? and ?barbie?
32) You?ve adopted a local bar as your own.
33) You know the oath of mateship can never be limited by geographical distance

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If this drops out at

March 6th, 2004

If this drops out at any stage (every stage?!!?!) please be patient… will be back up and running asap! :)

Adam

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Adam’s Work Starsign

March 6th, 2004

Pisces Employee Profile
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The Pisces employee can be a loyal and hard-working, if unconventional, worker. In the right position, they are able to
keep their daydreams in check and buckle down on the detail work-giving their all to the boss and corporation whom
they feel are worthy of devotion.

On the flip side, there is no image of extreme misery like that of an ill-placed Pisces worker. They will act as though their
cubicle were a prison cell as they daydream of their own business or next vacation.

Unhappy Pisces workers usually won’t stick around too long. Often Pisceans will drift from one job to another looking for
that ideal environment to which they will be able to commit and feel a sense of purpose. And if things are going in a bad
direction at the office, Pisces will be the first to sense it. They’d rather pick up and leave then wait until the problem
reaches a head. Pisces are often misunderstood by their co-workers.

Typically timid and introspective, they usually keep their true nature hidden, for fear it wouldn’t fit with the corporte culture. What motivates a Pisces employee to not only stick around but also excel? Try compliments. And show them how their work impacts the entire organization.

They need to know that what they are doing is worth something on a grander scale. Acceptance of their
unconventional organization and planning will be necessary. Just because their sales report isn’t in the typical format
doesn’t mean it is any less effective. Keep their environment bright and upbeat; and an after-work cocktail wouldn’t hurt.

That doesn’t sound like me at all :)

If you want your starsign posted, drop me a comment :)
Adam

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10

March 5th, 2004

As referring to Eve and Miyoko, with their question about finding a 10.

They do exist and they are worth waiting for. Funny thing is when you find it is that you will be the *only* person who sees them as a 10. Most people will view the two of you as something less, but you’ll know it’s true and there’s nothing you can do to stop it.

Just my 1 cents worth.
Adam

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Trust Me on the Sunscreen……

March 2nd, 2004

Everybody’s free, oh yeah… yeah…eahhh

Free to watch tv, free to sacrifice goats, free to eat red meat (or not as you see fit..), though in some states you’re not free to eat cats (what’s with that?), free to spend a day on City Cat, cruising the Brisbane river, free to get sunburnt.

We live in the lucky country, apart from the odd riot, car jacking, or unexpected flood, we really don’t have anything to complain about… but sure enough we do! (well at least I am at this point)

I’m sunburnt, it did hurt, but it doesn’t now, but the skin is about to fall off and it will again….
I’m not going to deny that someone much smarter and prettier than I, subtly suggested I apply some sunscreen, but I didn’t think we would be out that long. More fool me.

But on the flip side, I’m not as crispy as Dan was after “that jetski ride” with Adam.
There’s always a positive isn’t there.

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