But I didn’t ask for your help, didn’t seek your guidance. My way is to take things inside, fret badly and not share what’s going on. I needed your laughter and your calm. I probably just needed a swift kick to get myself back together and to stop worrying about things that are beyond my control.
I still don’t know how to ask for your help.
I want you to know what’s going on, but I don’t want to interfere on your fun. You have a life too and that’s important to me, sacred to me. I don’t want to bring my misery unto you. I want you to be happy.
I want to be happy.
I needed your warmth wrapped around me tonight, I wanted your touch on my skin to soothe me. I wanted for me not to be allright, and for that to be allright.
I’m still learning how to say i’m scared.
I’ll remember to tell you this when I find out who you are.
Adam
