I missed you tonight.
Your smell, your touch, your embrace. I missed the way you laugh at my bad jokes and the way you touch my soul with your beautiful words. I miss that we didn’t get a chance to cook together. I lament our distance and pray that soon we will be together.
I wish I could write the words I feel in my heart. It is difficult for me to express what I feel, but I feel so much. You make my world complete and I can’t imagine you not being in it. I miss your smell.
Tonight I went out and drank, drank quite a lot. I’m not sure why but I think I was scared of you not being here. I drank because I know the things I will miss, even though you are my focus.
I want what I can’t have, feel what I can’t feel and want to touch what’s not really mine. I want all the hurt and pain to go away. I know you know what I said at my brothers wedding was for you. I know that mostly it was me talking to you.
For the moments i’m not with you I miss you, the moments that i’m with you I crave you even more.
I love that I love you. I love that it feels so right.
If only I knew who you were…….
Adam
