Today I miss many things…
A key component of personal growth in my eyes is a constant and diligent self-evaluation of ones own ‘place’ in the world. This ‘place’ doesn’t necessarily equate to a physical determination, financial standing or even friendship base, but is more a ‘feeling’ about the values that drive us and the decisions which we are judged on.
I like my place in the world right now, but I crave for places elsewhere. I love the friends that I have (both in Brisbane and Bundaberg) though I know in my heart that I feel an uneasiness about my situation in general. It’s not that I want something ‘better’, it’s that I need something different in my life. In simplest terms, I couldn’t be bothered with perfectly nice girl on Saturday. She was probably great, but i’m not at a point in my life where I want to take something like that on board.
If you have any idea of what i’m talking about, you know how I feel right now, if not, then that’s fine, but i’m guessing your life could have been better used up thinking about beer or winning lotto 
…… hmmm.. beer…
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What I have to be sure of now is that i’m not running, and i’ve made that commitment. Not only have I taken the time and patience to achieve the goals that i’ve set myself personally and professionally, I’ve stayed when i’ve needed to and not become so caught up in the journey that I forget the goal.
My new goals are becoming more clear to me now, they are mostly-solidified in my mind and (for the first time in my life) i’m excited about the execution. To understand a goal from the outset will surely make my experience both my enjoyable, and my expectations more reasonable.
I think it’s go ng to be fun 
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Oh yeah… right now i’m missing:
- Theatre ….. Give me my season pass back
- Opera …… Anything so passionate, that even in another language I understand entirely, has me spellbound
- My family …. Though they are with me in spirit, they will soon be further away then ever before
- The challenge …. I have to admit I miss the stress and tension of being in the ‘middle of it’ …. I miss the deadlines and execution timeframes and impossible expectations. It gets the best out of me every time.
- (for the first time in a long time), A partner …. I think I miss kissing ….. the closeness of it all, the sweet aromas and the unrivalled tension of a first kiss…. hmmm
- Commuting (stupid, I know!) …. I miss reading on the bus, and I miss listening to my walkman….. Throughout the past eight years it’s been constant. Public transport, zone-out time…. I don’t get that anymore unless I schedule it….
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Loving all your work
A
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