Well, I really don’t want to say this for obvious reasons - but I should have done exactly what Adam told me to do (I can hear the I told u so’s already…) but I chickened out. I just couldn’t do it, how the hell do you slip it in to conversation?? “umm, by the way I just want to have a casual ‘thing’ with you so don’t get attached….”.
Couldn’t do it, every way I looked at it, it just sounded pompous. I did manage to slip my views on relationships in to the conversation on a couple of occasions though and he said a few things which I thought were quite promising.
One was the term “play buddies” which I assumed is a nicer way of saying f@ck buddies & the other was “at least I know where I stand with you”. Which made me think I kinda got my point across. I should have been a bit pro active with that last comment & asked him where he thought he stood, but I didn’t.
Anyway, I was feeling kinda good about it all on Thursday, then at 10.30am (2 hours after I last saw him) I get this txt “Thanx 4 the best night sweetie… 
I’m feeling on top of the world, I hope u have a unreal day and I’ll talk 2u 2night…xxx”. I basically went “Oh, shit” Anyway, we had a quick chat Thursday night, he sent me a few txt’s over the weekend & at one stage wanted to call me but I didn’t respond to that message… & he’s going to give me a buzz tonight. Friends txt & call each other, right? We get on really well. No big deal…
I did followed through on point no. 2 of Adam’s txt “No more outings, gives him the wrong idea”. We just ended up getting take away & staying in.
Oh & just in case you’re wondering, it was only 4 times - we did have to eat & I did have work the next day :o)
Also, before I leave you, I just have to say I had a fantastic weekend! I took Friday off work so had a extra, extra long weekend & met up with a friend in Byron Bay. Byron’s awesome! The weather was perfect! I had a blast! & dancing on the tables at Cheeky Monkeys rocks! But can I just say I’ll never get males (I think that’s already obvious form what I’ve written above but there’s more to it).
What in god’s name does a guy (sorry, that should read ‘drunk guy’) think he’s going to accomplish by going up to a girl & going “you’re hot” & telling her to kiss him? Then pestering her all night after she says no? Ok, granted if he were cute it might work… but seriously, I feel like I have “LOSERS NEED ONLY APPLY” sign stuck to my forehead, that & “NO ONE OVER 23 NEED APPLY”. I know I supposedly look young but when 18 year olds are trying to pick you up, it’s like, “Honey, I’m almost 10 years older than you!!!”. Talk about frustrating!! I spose it’s a good thing that I’m not looking for a relationship huh.
Well I better get back to work. I know I’ve been rambling on for ages, sorry if boredom’s set in, but in short there are 2 more things that rate a mention.
Things I did for the first time this weekend -
1: sunbathed topless. Very liberating! plenty of 30+ sunscreen was on hand
2: got very stoned in Nimbin. I met a local there & at first I was a little wary of him as he was missing a few front teeth & looked a pretty dodgy but we got talking & he brought my friend & I a drink at a ’smoking’ cafe, it was very cool!
I’ll end this post by saying that I’m very tired at the moment. I got back to Sydney at 7am this morning & started work & 8.30am. My brain is not really functioning so if this post makes no sense please for give me!
