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Allowing those to get close to you is an experience that i’m still working through. My best friends (Matt and Co.) remain so because they see right through my defenses and just like me for who I am.

When I moved to Bundaberg, I moved to be with a girl and thought the universe of her. As life happens it didn’t work out, but I have had the opportunity to meet some amazing and talented individuals who I now call friends, and who i’m terribly afraid of losing to one opportunity or another.

Most people think I head home at 2 in the morning (it’s usually the same time) because i’m tired/lazy/slack/ but realistically it’s about the time my brain calms down enough for me to consider them as people. As soon as this happens I worry about them not being in my life and I escape.

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I was sitting at the pub last night after a particularly good evening (still no alcohol involved) and decided to depart. After sitting at home for about 30 minutes, I realised that I wanted to be out, wanted to spend time with them, I was just afraid of them not being around at some stage.

Overcoming this fear is something that i’m going to continue to work on in the long term, but as with everything, every action requires a starting point, so I pulled my clothes back on and strolled back down until it’s was just us and the owner left at some ungodly hour.

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There are some dramas in a few peoples’ lives atm, and I send out my love and support to them. You know who you are and if you need anything, you call me ok?

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So much more I want to say right now, but still cautious of the reader-base. I’ll be back a little later on with an update post, but right now have to cleanup and organise the mass exodus towards my house (and my a/c unit) for a bout out afternoon scrabble and an al fresco lunch on the deck.

Loving all your work
Adam

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