The Mel affect….
What an impact this individual has had on my life……
Currently list ning to: Norah Jones : Come Away with Me
*sigh* … the past couple of days has reinforced the loneliness that I feel, and the impact that this individual has had on my existence…. I had the pleasure of very gently getting to know Mel over a 6 month period, where we exchanged pleasantries and I fixed her PC.
My interest was piqued when I saw her talents for leading/training the staff in her team, and I believe her to be a shoe-in for a promotion which was upcoming.
Unfortunately, fate decided to step in and throw her a curve ball which made her motivation levels at the time of interviews quite low and she wasn’t successful in her application.
Shortly after, we caught up a couple of times, and upon having a few drinks one night I gave her a massage. Now mind you these massages are definitely reserved for people that I either believe really need them or for people that I like. She headed home rather early and I thought nothing of it. Next day I was still hungover and invited to post-night drinks, and in my semi-slightly-intoxicated state I phoned her up and asked her to join us for breakfast which she reluctantly agreed to.
One thing led to another and she ended up buying a BBQ, and we spent the afternoon building it, the evening cooking on it and drifting into a session of movie-watching.
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[Insert details about me telling her I liked her ... nothing heavy, just said that I thought she was cool and we should catch up sometime, and getting rejected in no uncertain terms 
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Post-that-night it’s just been difficult and awkward…. the poor girl keeps away from me as much as possible and I can understand why…..
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