09.14.03

I was going to start

Posted in Uncategorized at 23:09 by Adam

I was going to start talk about my Sydney trip…. I was going to talk about all the great things I did and all the people that I met and the good times that I had, but I’ve decided on a different tack….

In my life, I have learned the following invaluable, timeless and critical lessons. You don’t find these in text books, not many people say them, but they’re out there, and they’re one of the secrets to happiness.

- Be yourself in your own world, and accept those graciously into it
- Sing, it’ the most joyful expression of your life, and although you may not sell records, it opens your spirit, calms your soul and connects you with something bigger
- Hug your parents. You may not be close to them, and it may some times be uncomfortable, but before you know it they’re out of your life, and you can never bring them back
- Never be afraid to laugh OR cry. These two emotions are your greatest link with yourself, never be afraid to share them.
- Love with honesty, integrity and respect. Always remember that there’s someone else on the receiving end, and although you may not realise it, you can have contact with them that lasts only minutes, but affects them for a lifetime.

I am indebted to the people in my life. Naming you all would be crazy, you all know who you are, you know where you u sit in my life, and I wouldn’t want my life without any of you present.

For those that I’ve hurt, I am truly sorry. Finding the most significant amount of happiness gives you hard time to reflect on the things you’ve done poorly. I will do all in my power to rectify these wrongs.

For those that I’ve loved, thankyou. Though I may not be a part of your lives anymore, there was still a time and a place where I felt a connection with you in my heart, and I don’t ever wish to be bitter about that, nor do I wish you to be bitter in yours. I wish you well, and I’m always lurking if you truly need me.

For those that I love and care about now. You are the people I see and talk to every day, and some who I don’t see/talk to as much as I’d like, but you know who you are :).

Thankyou for the late night talks, beers on Sunday nights, days taken off “sick”, movie sessions, nightclub/pub crawls, offers of sleeping localities, bbq lunches, all-night chats (some of the better ones being with the guys!) and hungover McDonald’s’ breakfasts. The moments shared and the moments now past are all alive and well in my heart, and I will always cherish them.

For those of you who know me to my core, know my soul, and know me in places that I don’t even think about (you know who you are). The best is yet to come……

Adam

09.05.03

The winding road..

Posted in Uncategorized at 0:25 by Adam

I wonder when the next turn in the road is going to appear???

I often ask myself this question, and inevitability always strikes when it comes to the winding road that is life. I am fighting a losing battle with my inner-self as to the directions I need to have and the losses that I need to accept.

I am still painfully and acutely dealing with the day-to-day realisation of the person who offered me salvation for my own soul, but concurrently delivered me to an abandoned plain where I don’t know the way out and i’m standing cold and naked to the winds of change.

The trio of us ‘boys’ ventured into the darkness last night and consumed various levels of alcoholic beverages, unaware of our destination, bound by the reality that the world is not getting younger, but we are getting older.
My disassociation with financial responsibility and the reality that follows it has become a disturbing trend, though I cannot help but wonder is this not a growth that I need to undertake?

I was offered advice when trying to explain the feeling you have when the world just seems to fall in to place and you look into someone’s eyes and find a peace you cannot understand, nor do you try to, but was unceremoniously rebuted when he indicated to me that maybe love isn’t that shining beacon, maybe it’s just a deep, unseatable commitment to another human being. I honestly don’t know, maybe that’s just both how we see the world differently.

I’m afraid and excited about the possibility of Melbourne. Maybe it will be the best thing in the world (and with me shit-scared about it, it’s almost certainly going to be the best thing for me), or maybe it will be another turn in the road. Inevitability strikes again.

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